omgitsriley's Blog

that my first real blog entry had to do with my talking to the wife of the married  man I broke it off with over two months ago.

She called me three times on New Year's Eve, four times on New Year's Day, three times yesterday, and once tonight.  Tonight I finally answered.

She was civil...I was civil...I feel like an awful person right now..

She asked me questions and I answered her truthfully.  They were questions she seemed to already know the answers to.  She spoke to me about emails, texts, phone calls, receipts for gifts, receipts for business trip expenses that didn't exist, and hours that her husband wasn't home.

She told me the jeopardy that this relationship with me has put their marriage in.  She told me how her children have suffered because of this relationship.  The one questions she didn't know the answer to was how long I had been involved with her husband.  Four years surprised her.  She has every right to tell me what she thinks of me, although she was not harsh.

I told her that I was deeply sorry for the pain I have caused her and her children.

She thanked me for taking the time to speak to her, to answer her questions and to be open and honest with her.  I assured her that I would have no further communcations with her husband of any kind  She said she would not bother me again.

What really kills me is that she was such a nice woman.  I don't know that I would have been as kind as she was.

I have started so many blogs in the past....Live Journal, My Space, Blog Spot....but always let them fall by the wayside.  I think the issue was that all my off-line friends had access to those writings and I found myself holding back because there were things going on in my life that I wanted to write about but didn't want everybody in my life to know about.

I'm too tired this evening to put thoughts together...but we'll see how this progresses....


Riley